When I don’t feel supported, I freak out, then I feel sorry for myself for being so alone – I let it go on for as long as it lasts. Then I think about who I could talk to about the situation. I need to find the courage next to reach out and then just do it, even if I don’t want to. I know I will feel better if I push through and find those people who will support me no matter what.
When I feel desperate to talk to someone I have to work with my attitude – acknowledge where I am at and then choose to reach out – trusting that there are compassionate people out there. I have to take the risk to reach out.
I don’t have anyone who supports me. I am difficult to deal with and angry a lot of the time. I have burned a lot of bridges. The fact is that I am not ready to do anything about changing things and that is my truth right now. I want to be alone. It may not always be this way, but today it is. It’s important for me to be honest about this. I don’t want to feel bad about not being a ‘positive’ person. I feel good about this. Weird maybe, but true.
I was living in an abusive relationship and not letting anyone know what was happening to me. I was so ashamed. I started to think that killing myself was my only escape. I’ve had a whole life of abuse. I had a clear moment where I realized I needed help, and knew that I want to live. I called Women’s Community House and talked to someone who helped me decide to change my life. It has been a long road but my life is my own now. Fight through the shame - choose yourself. You deserve to live your life as well as you can. People will help you - look for support for yourself. You don’t have to do it alone.